from:  An interrupted life, the diary of Etty Hillesum


Etty Hillesum was a Dutch Jewish young woman from Amsterdam.

She wrote the following in June 1942.


God cannot be held accountable to us, but we are accountable to him.

I know what will happen to us next ()


The latest news is that all the Jews will be deported from Holland to Poland, through camps in the province of Drenthe,

and the English radio said that since last year 700,000 Jews have perished in Germany and the occupied territories.


If we do survive than we will have that many wounds to carry for the rest of our lives.


And still life makes sense to me, my God, I cannot help it.

And God should not be held accountable by us for the senseless things that we do.

We are responsible!


I have already died a thousand deaths in a thousand camps.

I know it all and I do no longer get upset over new information. Somehow I already know it all.


And still I find this life beautiful and full of meaning,

every minute of it.



back to page "celebration May 10th texts"